Swirling within a web of lies, life's truth never to be revealed.
...To be continued later in the Day
Kawasumi Hirito :: 00:17
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
What is it like to live life with no goals, no ambition, no hope? But isn't it worse to have one and lose it eventually? Fallen into darkness with no way out, unable to grasp the tiny bits of existance that makes you.
Overwhelmed by feelings that crushes the depths of the human soul, destroying all foundation built throughout the years within seconds, the pain of losing something so dear to you that you're as good as dead.
Trying to walk a new path to a new journey takes a strong heart, one that earns with hope. Lost in a never-ending maze my current path is, doubt to ever find thy exit, my life is finished. Living this mere fragment of what used to be my life; wasted, forgotten, forsaken.
P.S: 100th Post since starting this "blog". To those that visits, thanks for staying on for so long for someone that shouldn't exist.
Kawasumi Hirito :: 22:33
Monday, December 26, 2005
"Forgotten, forsaken my mere existance is, an outcast my current fate is."
Living out of time, something that i now understand all too well. A mere time span of a year and so many things had changed, so much that i can't imagine how it would feel like when i come back from studying overseas, how many people would know me.
Still unable to totally overcome my past i walk the same similiar road of destruction. Sadness, enough to cause mental breakdown, still trap within thy heart, refusal to self-destruct my only way of escape.
Torn my heart split into two, heartache and sorrow enclosed within me. A feeling all too familiar, and will forever be there. Hope may still resides in me, however, an eternity's end is my sole salvation.
Kawasumi Hirito :: 02:01
Saturday, December 24, 2005
It's been about 2 months since my last update, though there's nothing much to really add besides going through my attachment slowly one day at a time...been 8 weeks since i started it...10 more weeks to go.
Christmas Eve...not many memories worth remembering on these "memorial" days of each year.. It's more like just another day to me, with nothing worth binding myself to besides my past.
"Holding onto memories can be great strength, but binded the mind be, the downfall of many to pass."
